1. |
they all seem so happy
03:56
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i can't feel my heart
it's been robbed & held hostage
i'm drunk on loneliness
out back weeping shirtless
cuz life has lost its spark
it's a black & white film strip
every night delirious
searching for the purpose
cuz no one seems to be around me
all alone or when i'm surrounded
these fucked up thoughts
make my head feel crowded
my eagerness renders me invalid
i tried my best
but they're laughing at me
wish it had come easier
they all seem so happy
in the wasteland of my thoughts
i search through the ruins
for anything that's left
to turn into profit
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2. |
TSION
02:01
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i had to wear long pants all summer
cuz i got a tattoo
that looked like something it wasn't
i was in an OCD daze
drawing shit on my leg
felt like a fight for my life
solving that puzzle
but that shit is over now
yeah i got it figured out
fuck me for not thinking it through
but it could happen to you
i hope that never ever goes down
but that shit is over now
i used to drink white claws
at sun up
the guy at 711 knew i was a fuck up
man i was so down in the dregs
i was all red in the face
i was so low
i thought it would last forever
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3. |
you deserve attention
02:28
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there's nothing left
when we kiss
my lips are telling lies
i said i loved you
i know i did
but my lips are telling lies
so go out dancing with him
& when he leans to kiss you
don't think of me then
cuz i won't love you like he can
& you deserve attention
i'm in my room alone
drinking sutter home
the bottle's my lover
once again
& this is what i wanted
i said you couldn't come
i wanna spend
my saturday night like this
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4. |
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i think that i'm going crazy
i talk to myself
more than anybody else
these days are so long & lonely
my mind feels like a prison cell
how come no one gets to know me
how come everyone's staring me down
how come it feels like i'm losing
when they all say
that i'm making them proud
everyday feels like a memory
i'm outside my body
& can't make out the details
just when i think i've found meaning
i remember i'm the stranger
& no one really cares
how come i had to quit drinking
it kinda sucks to lose
letting go of myself
the worst part
is i'm so ungrateful
i'm too self-absorbed & depressed
to see everything's going well
yeah everything has been going so well
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5. |
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without you i'd have nothing
& i might even be dead
you put the ground beneath my feet
when i fall into my head
we celebrate every little thing
we're each-other's champions
you're the den mama
you're the fucking lioness
if you didn't love me
i'd be lonely all the time
you're a deep breath
sigh of relief
yeah you tranquilize my mind
i've stood before you broken
like 100 million times
i know that cuz we're lovers
all across different time lines
it's so nice
to have you back
let's stay in bed
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6. |
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deja vu somehow
like a past life in her eyes
the look on her face like
a reoccurring dream
she operates
in absurdity like me
she's laughing
& she's crying
simultaneously
the words that shape
her outlook
sometimes seem bleak
but she's weeping
& she's gracious
like the old willow tree
when she walks
it's a black box theatre scene
cuz she's dancing with each movement
like choreography
the look on her face
like a reoccurring dream
she's a stranger
but i know her somehow
subconsciously
she's a stranger
but i know her
at least
that's how it seems
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7. |
mass market paperback
01:28
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they don't care
but i do
mass market paperback
i wish i was like the rest
think i'm never coming back
can't change what happened
what a drag
try to kill the empty feeling
staring holes into the ceiling
watercolors changing colors
i took too much
now the color's bleeding
i don't wanna live like this anymore
wake up with a pounding in my head
like a door
but i can't forget
what i lost to the war
so i find relief where i can
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8. |
iwantthis2last!
03:14
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it all used
to pour right out
now i'm pouring over a map
& when the light hits my face
i become a parody
of my past
cuz now all of a sudden i'm
afraid to let anyone know
i feel sad
cuz everything's been going so well
& i want this to last
i had to lock up
all my problems
just to make a dollar
& now no matter what i do
everything feels hollow
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9. |
empty arms
03:46
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it never gets better
wasted six months
getting clean
my mind's full of terrors
my chest shakes
with every heart beat
i wake in the black veil of dawn
all day long i grieve
moments that have all slipped away
i clutch every broken piece
i said i'd die with a song
on my lips with empty arms
give my final breath away
it's all i can to carry on
even when the light is gone
all the world
in shades of gray
life's a trap
infinite flashback
love never felt the same
since my first
taste of happiness
sorrow only remains
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